get familiar: MatchBack

December 28, 2017


there's something to be said about an organization that is all about giving back. when MatchBack reached out to me, I did my research + was honestly upset that I didn't know about them sooner.

when Aaron Podell was growing up, he was bullied due to a speech impediment. he chose to rise above it, and decided to be the change. he started MatchBack. 

a bundle of bad-ass goodies delivered to your door, and MB will send the same bundle to an underprivileged teen. 

they've worked with The Dream Center, Big Brother/Big Sister, the YMCA + Ridgecrest Autism Awareness just to drop a few names. 

they collaborate with different artists, so every month, the bundle is exclusively designed.





being a mom, and knowing that at some point, my girls will deal with some form of bullying breaks my heart. I am glad to know that there are organizations like MatchBack who saw a gap, and fixed it. they knew the changed started with them, and now they are taking over the game.

I am more than honored to be rocking their gear + know for sure, you'll look pretty bad-ass too.


want to learn more?

gift guide: home

November 28, 2017


hey loves! so I recently asked on IG if you guys were into gift guides on the blog, and 90% of you said yes! so here we are! I'm not sure if I will be able to do a bunch of individual guides, but I figured if I could group them, it might be easier - and less reading for you! I wanted to share my top picks for the home for today. so whether you know a new homeowner, or want to snag something for yourself, grab a cup of tea, throw on a pair of joggers + let's shop!






1. iRobot Roomba WiFi Vacuum
not sure this baby even needs an explanation. it's been on my wish list for the past 3 years + I am really hoping Santa delivers one this year. Lu is crawling, which means we are vacuuming/sweeping constantly. these can be an investment, but it's currently on sale! 


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2. PlayStation 4
this bad boy is one of the new gaming systems to hit the scene this holiday season! it offers wi-fi + BluRay capabilities. you can download apps like Netflix + Spotify, which we have been using daily. you can even link it to your iPhone or Android, making the possibilities pretty endless. oh, and don't tell my husband, but Santa already snagged it. get it now for $100 OFF!


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3. Calphalon Cookware Set
this set is incredible. we have had ours for just about 5 years + they are still going strong! these are the perfect gift for a new homeowner, newlyweds or even wrap it up for yourself + throw a gorgeous bow on top, especially since it's UNDER $100!


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4. Kitchen Aid Stand Mixer
one of the most sought after kitchen items on the market, is this beauty. not only does it look gorgeous on top of your counter, but it's an item you can literally use for everything. there are so many attachments that are available, you could make breakfast, lunch, dinner + dessert. currently on sale for less than $200 right now!


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5. Keurig Coffee Maker
we are currently in the market for one + I think we hit the jackpot. I am obsessed with the pearl shade, making it perfect for any kitchen! on super sale, for less than $90. pour it up people!


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6. Wine Rack
if you aren't sure of what type of wine to get someone, grab one of these instead! perfect for anyone who drinks - wait, there's people who don't drink? I am loving the gold accents and right now, it's under $50.


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7. Crock Pot Slow-Cooker
my god, I could not live without mine. wake up in the morning with the kids, throw all the ingredients in, let it cook, and have dinner ready without having a sink full of dishes to clean. this one just went on sale too, under $85!


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I am seriously so glad you guys told me how much you enjoy reading these gift guides! hopefully I can get some more up soon before you finish your holiday shopping! I'll be sure to update you for my next one [or subscribe + never miss a post]! leave a comment below + let me know who you need help shopping for! 

G.




*disclaimer: affiliation links are included in this post. all opinions are my own.

a letter to that mama

November 21, 2017


dear mama,

I see you. I can see your worry and the guilt already starting to add up. you're sitting on the floor building legos, or playing dress up with your first baby, when you feel it. those little kicks from your sweet miracle growing. it may have been planned, or been a complete surprise, but it's already starting. those feelings. I see you mama.

most days, the only thing reminding you of the new life growing inside of you, are those kicks. you don't get to stop your day to sit on the couch to soak in all the movements like you had done the first time around. you are busy running a household. folding laundry, making dinner. playdates, school events + chasing after a very busy toddler, who by the way, looks 5 years older ever since that test read "positive".

there is no baby book, logging every new craving, or new outfit that you picked up when you were casually strolling along in the baby section with your hot latte. your new sonogram pictures might get crinkled by the little hands of your first, because they "want to see their new baby". you cry at the thought of that. at the thought of a new little person, stealing the attention. how will you juggle it? how will you be in two places at once? how can you divide your heart? I see you mama.

you'll pack your hospital bag and wipe away the tears. bringing some "hand me downs" and trying to remember when your first was that small. hoping that you don't mess up. that you remember how to do the newborn phase. worrying about how your first will handle this new chapter. will they act out for attention? will they get jealous? will they be accepting? you'll wipe away the tears.

you'll give them their last "my only baby" hug and kiss. it might last a minute, but it'll feel like seconds. you know when you return home, it won't be the same. you will have to teach them to share with the baby, even their favorite toy. you will have to teach them about patience. that "the baby needs to eat, so just give mom a second". you'll see their face turn down when they've said "mom look at me" for the 76th time. you're trying. my god you are trying so hard. I see you mama.

some days will be really hard. you'll pray to find the balance. some days you'll feel like super mom, and some days you'll question everything. but every day, you do it.

everyday you love like crazy. you kiss every boo-boo. you prepare every meal, and give every bottle. you build every castle and you shake every rattle. you'll have play-doh in your hair, but fuck, that's better than never taking it out of the box, right? you'll appreciate every single second that you get one-on-one with your babies, and every second you are blessed to see them together.

some days you'll give yourself a "time-out" for the sole purpose of just catching your breath. take it. you deserve it. you deserve that moment, for all that you have done. you deserve that, and so much more. you've gotten through the fears and the worries. you've gotten through the sleepless nights. you've found your rhythm. you deserve it. I see you mama.





family photoshoot | Q+A

November 7, 2017


it might sound crazy, but sharing our family shoots has generated a ton of questions. sure Pinterest can give you some ideas, but I always think that getting someone's actual input always serves best. we have our upcoming family shoot next week, so I wanted to do a little Q+A to help you guys with location ideas, clothing choices + even how to find the best photographer. feel free to leave your comments below to touch on anything I may have missed! 



Q: how do you find the best photographer?

A: I think social media plays a role, but personal references are HUGE! depending on your style, it's best to shop around. email them all your questions, get a feel for their vibe + always reference back to their work. they may like architectural shoots, or nature. they may use props, or take more candid shots over "posed". ask for their prices + see what fits your budget. photographers who are just starting out generally have a very small fee (or could be free), so shop around!

our go-to photographer is coming back to work (fingers crossed) in 2018, so this upcoming shoot will be done by Tiffany Rose - who I have never worked with - but have heard amazing reviews about. her work is gorgeous + we have chatted in detail about my vision + her style, and the best way to combine the two! 




Q: how do you style a shoot?

A: a basic rule of thumb (for me), minimal patterns. I try to do solid neutral colors for the most part, maybe throwing in a striped piece here + there, depending on the shoot. for holiday shoots, I do like to throw something fun in. avoid dressing anyone in the same colors + make sure your clothing has different dimensions (i.e.: denim, cotton, tulle). you don't want everyone to blend into each other, or the backgrounds. stay away from any logos, or clothing with words. 




Q: how do you pick the location?

A: this is something you can definitely chat with your photographer about, but you should also have an idea of what you like. I am into outdoors, natural light + greenery. your photographer should have an idea of most local spots, or even some places you can travel to (but keep in mind most photographer's have a traveling fee). for seasonal shoots, I try to get creative, but otherwise, I prefer a shoot where I can have evergreen content (photos to use all year round). we did our 2015 holiday shoot at a christmas tree farm + it was perfect!




Q: what is a good price range?

A: this totally varies depending on the type of shoot you need. weddings obviously are at the top end, labor/delivery can get pricey too. I would come up with a price in your head that you are comfortable with, then shop around until you find someone who meets that. keep in mind that some charge by the hour, and some charge by the amount of photos they will edit. turn around time is a big factor too. you don't want to wait more than 5-7 days to have your pictures returned to you, especially around the holidays.






I hope this post helped some of you guys with ideas for your upcoming shoots! it's always best to keep it natural when you aren't sure of something. you don't want to look back at your photos + not look like yourself. keep hair + makeup simple, nothing over the top or too "dramatic". natural facial expressions, don't force it. the best is when you get caught in the moment. those shots are always my favorite!


G.

lucy's birth story

October 18, 2017

toms river, nj

I have country music on & finishing up an iced coffee.

this post has been sitting on "draft" for 2 months, so I figured what better time to share it!

Lucy is now 8 months old - HOW? and believe it or not, we are still adjusting to life with two babies. every day is something different, a new milestone, challenge + adventure.

a lot of people assume labor/delivery occurs like it does in the movies. lord, I wish it did. 98% of the time, your water doesn't even break on it's on - shocker, I know. with Mila, I did go into labor naturally (after pre term labor at 29 weeks), we did make it to 39w4d. but with Lu, that wasn't the case.

as my due date approached, I went to my 39w appointment + discussed being induced. my anxiety was extremely high at this point, wondering if I would go into labor while I was out, or in my sleep (like with Mila). if I would have to wait for my husband to drive all the way home from work + cross my fingers we made it to the hospital in time. plus, who was going to watch Mila? 

we decided on an induction to help ease my anxiety + worries, and the next morning John + I headed to the hospital.

they hooked me up, and the nurses began to place bets

"we have 4 other moms here .. we are betting on you delivering first!"

no pressure.

spoiler alert - I delivered last


I decided I didn't want to rush for an epidural this time, since with Mila, it didn't work.

they began the induction, and we waited. I wasn't dilating much so they upped my medication. nothing. my OB came in, checked me + asked if I wanted them to break my water (which we did with Mila). I agreed since I knew what to expect. let's get the show on the road.

about 3 hours later, my labor was progressing perfectly. contractions were strong and I only had about 3cm until we would start delivery. my nurse came in to ask if I was ready for an epidural, and I declined. I was so calm and relaxed, the pain didn't really bother me this time around. 

now cut to 20 minutes later, I called in my nurse and said "let's get that epidural". normally they don't give epidurals after a certain point, but my nurses were incredible. at first it didn't work - as I expected - but luckily, they were fine giving me a few more doses. bless their souls.

after about an hour, I told my husband to shut the tv off + put on country music. I just wanted to relax until they told me it was ready to push. the clock read 4:31 and I said to John, "this baby will be here before 5, watch". I closed my eyes and woke up to my amazing doctor asking if she could check my progress.

"do you feel any pressure?"

"nope"

she had me put my knees up, and immediately stopped dead in her tracks

she left the room, grabbed a nurse (who was assisting in the delivery in the next room), ran back in + grabbed gloves.

"you didn't feel pressure? she is right there!"

I looked at John and started sobbing (which I apparently did with Mila too). just knowing that in a few seconds, she would be on my chest. all this waiting, and the moment is finally here.

since I was still numb (thank the heavens), the nurses read the monitor and told me when I had to push. 

1st push: her head/shoulders
2nd push: she was here

the clock now read 4:35

they placed her on my chest and I studied her face as she took her first little breath.

her tiny cries, puffy eyes + 10 little toes

I remember thinking she was way smaller than Mila, and she was.

a perfect 6 lbs 4 oz, with a ton of hair






I took the next 2 days relaxing + enjoying my new little babe. I knew I didn't want John staying with me this time. Lu was nursing like a champ, and I was so much more confident. plus, why make your man sleep on a chair? I wanted him home with Mila, so a little after Lu was born, it was just me + my girl.

I decided to keep her in the room with me, unlike with Mila - who had to be kept in the nursery for observations. I didn't want to miss out on these moments again. the nurses took such amazing care of us, bringing me food after-hours, hot tea + keeping Lu swaddled up right - because let's face it - who swaddles better than a L&D nurse?! it was like a mini vacation, but deep down, I couldn't wait to get home to Mila + start this new chapter as a family of 4, with our newest Lucy Belle.





current favorites

October 7, 2017


the weeks seriously fly by. I have so many posts drafted up, and literally ZERO time to edit + upload. but I thought sharing a few of my current favorites would be a good way to transition into the colder months. I am in no way a "beauty blogger" - but I have received a bunch of questions regarding things that I have shared on IG [@gniccccc], so I thought it would make the most sense to have all those items in one place + give you a little run down about each.




iPHONE PORTRAIT MODE


this was introduced to me over the summer + I have been obsessed ever since. there is an option in your iPhone camera that allows you to take more "professional" shots. open your camera, click "portrait" + follow the directions it gives you on the bottom of your screen. it'll tell you to move closer/further away from your object + it blurs our the background, so your shot is more clean + less "busy". I love using this when I take photos of my girls. 




BABY MONITOR


one of my mommy friends had posted a picture of her kid sleeping + the quality was unreal. I asked what camera she used, and she told me this! the YI HOME camera system is crazy good. if offers play back, and a live feed with no drag time. you can also talk through it, which I love. I believe most people use this as a home security system, but for a baby monitor, it's amazing.

purchase HERE



JOJOBA OIL


you guys, this stuff is life changing. you can use it all over your entire body. my favorite use is in my makeup routine. after my moisturizer + primer, I will mix a few drops of this with my CC cream, and apply with a beauty blender. CC creams can be more on the dry side, so this helps keep it smooth + keeps your skin super dewy.

purchase HERE



CC CREAM


so as a mama of two, I need something quick + easy for when I actually have 4 minutes to put make up. this is my go-to because you don't need much + it's super light weight. a little bit goes a long way, but remember it can be more "dry" than a regular foundation. so use an oil or an extra moisturizer to help it from looking "cakey".

purchase HERE


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I hope to get more of these "favorites" up, maybe monthly [totally being optimistic there], or even quarterly. fingers crossed for getting all my drafted posts published too - send drinks!

our breastfeeding journey | mila + lucy

June 27, 2017


so before I start this, let's get one thing straight. it really doesn't matter how you feed your baby. I have never been a mom that judged other moms on this. who cares? breastfed, bottle fed, formula fed. it's all the same. happy baby = happy mommy, and that's all that matters.

over the last few weeks, I have been getting a bunch of questions about our breastfeeding journey with the girls, so I just wanted to share with you guys incase you had questions too! 

with Mila, it was hard. I think the combination of being a first time mom, with little confidence, and a screaming baby did me in. she had trouble latching, to anything. even in the hospital, they had to feed her with a dropper. she wound up being tongue tied, which I assumed was the issue. after we got that fixed, it helped her latch, but it was beyond painful for me. I would cringe every time she latched. ice packs, heating packs. I tried it all. I nursed her for 6 weeks, along with supplementing. I starting pumping after about 3 weeks (again, because I had no clue what I was doing), and mainly because I wasn't confident enough to nurse her in public at the time. 

I was only concerned with having a happy baby. and honestly, once she went to formula full time, she was the happiest I had ever seen her. again, happy baby = happy mommy.

now with Lucy, the story is completely different. once she was born, she did the "boob crawl", and latched right away. she was a professional nurser and I was beyond thrilled. 

she ate about every 4 hours - almost to the minute. she is very much a routine baby (like Mila was), which, as a nursing mom, is a huge help. it allowed me to know when I could shower, or clean up the house. it gave me time allotted to Mila solo, while Lucy napped. it just worked. 

as usual, I did have to adjust my diet. I gave up diary for the first 2 weeks to see if that helped with her gas, then I slowly added it back in. I also ate tons of oatmeal to keep my supply up.

I started pumping when Lucy was about 6-8 weeks old (it's recommended to wait until at least 6 weeks), so that I had built up a great supply for when I returned to work.

we were lucky enough to have my husband home the first 6 weeks of Lucy's life. he mainly helped with Mila, taking her out to the park, running errands. allowing me to nurse and relax with Lucy. I was home for the first 3 months after Lucy's birth (I was home for 2 years with Mila), and I truly believe that played a huge role in our breastfeeding success. I exclusively breastfed that entire time. I had no issues nursing her out in public - hello boobs! then we introduced bottles about a week before I went back to work, and after a lot of trial and error, we found ones that worked. 

now that I knew Lucy's feeding schedule, it made it easy for me to pump at work. John would feed her from my stash at home, and I would replenish it with what I had pumped at work. 

now that Lucy is almost 5 months, thing have changed a bit. she has taken to the bottle much better than expected, and now prefers that over nursing - #babyledweaning. I continue to pump and save it, but as a second time mom, I know that pumping doesn't accumulate the same as nursing does. a lot of moms get discouraged when they pump and only see an ounce. they automatically assume their baby isn't getting enough, but that's usually not the case. 

my pumping schedule has diminished down to about 2x a week, which I freeze. Lucy's diet now includes a formula for milk sensitivity and she just started solids. we do what works for us, and nobody else. I am beyond pleased with how long we have been able to keep breastmilk in the picture, but I know every baby is different. 

don't get down on yourself if your story isn't the same. do what works for you and your baby. I hope this answered some of your questions, but if not, just comment below! I always loved hearing what worked/didn't work for other moms, it's all trial and error!

happy baby = happy mama!




dock a tot | review + promo code

June 18, 2017



after you become a mom, you quickly learn that the new "it" baby items aren't always in your favor. with Mila, I bought everything. and guess what? Mila hated everything. your new baby is the new boss, so get ready. we went through 4 different brands of bottles, swaddles + even bath wash. I learned to try out things I wouldn't normally reach for. we had to find what she liked.

with that being said, I was super hesitant about this next item. when I got pregnant with Lucy, the Dock A Tot was all the rage. it had 5 stars, all the mommy bloggers raved about theirs, and how convenient it was. it's intended for parents who co-sleep (which we don't do), but after Lucy came, and her sleep schedule was already in place, I decided to hit the "buy" button. 

it's super light weight, so I can bring it up and down the stairs easily. the cover zippers on/off so cleaning is simple. and the prints are really freaking cute .. however, the price tag is not. 

they start at $165

Lucy adapted to it right away, and we now use it solely for bedtime/naps. I have a moses basket downstairs for relaxing, and keep the Dock A Tot in Lucy's crib - big girl status! we recently went out of town for the night, and brought the Dock A Tot with us. Lucy slept like a queen. 






interested in grabbing one for your babe? click HERE to get $10 off with my promo code!




*this post is not sponsored, all opinions are my own.

baby must-have items

June 8, 2017


so I have been doing this mom thing for a little over 3 years now. I am definitely not a pro by any means, but I have come to find that certain products just make my life easier. my husband's schedule puts him out of the house for about 14+ hours each work day, so the smoother my day runs, the better.

we all know it's trial and error when it comes to motherhood, so I would love to hear what items work for you and your family! let's jump into mine:



MULTI USE COVER

not only do these look gorgeous, but they are so practical. I use to have individual items for Mila, but now they make these amazing covers that are a life saver. they stretch over your car seat, can be used as a nursing cover, shopping cart cover (because, germs), a blanket, or if you want to get fancy - a scarf. super easy to throw in your diaper bag, or keep in the car!



mine is no longer available, but here is a similar one

SAKURA BLOOM

baby wearing has become a staple for me, even when Mila was small. on the days when I am chasing a toddler, I can wear Lucy .. and almost guarantee she will be sleeping in less than 5 minutes.




BOPPY CHAIR

this thing was a life saver. I was never a fan of high-chairs until Mila was older, so this was perfect. you can attach it to a regular chair (space saver!), or keep it on the counter (it has grips on the bottom). it also folds flat, making it really easy for travel. the tray attaches on & off super easy. this was where Mila, and now Lucy, like to spend most of their time. 






BAG ORGANIZER

when I had gotten my Louis Vuitton GM a few years back, the goal was the use it as a diaper bag when the time came. but I noticed (once I became an actual mom) that I needed a bag with compartments. this organizing insert is heaven! it fits perfect in my GM and makes it super simple to find the things I need quickly, without ripping my bag apart.




BLOOM BATH

my husband has mixed reviews on this, but I love it. with Mila, we had a plastic tub that you could put in the sink, or even the regular tub. it was nice, but I couldn't image it being comfortable, plus it was bulky - making it hard to store. enter the Bloom Bath. super cozy, can be put in the sink or tub, and has a hook on the back to hang once you're done. the best part? just pop in the washer/drying whenever you need to! 




this motherhood gig is hard enough as it is, so thanks for checking out my picks for making life a little easier! 

G.

lucy's gender reveal + pregnancy announcement

May 24, 2017


before I get into this, let's go back. after Mila turned 1, we decided we would stay a family of 3. we had no plans to grow, and took precautions to make sure that plan stayed in place. fast forward to June 5th, 2016. the day after my birthday, and I was 4 days late. I went to a baby shower, not thinking about it. when I left, something made to drive to the store and buy some tests. I came home, Mila was napping, and I went into the bathroom. 3 minutes later, there it was, positive. 

my emotions over the next 6 months were raw. I cried daily, not ready to share my attention. worried about how Mila would react to this new chapter. everyone told me "just wait until you see them together, it'll be the best." -- and they were so right. 

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next step? share it with the world.

I was a little over 4 months pregnant when we decided to announce it. we had the gender in an envelope on the refrigerator for over a month. I called up my photographer, Danielle Hughes, and we started brainstorming.

I knew I wanted to make this gender reveal fun for John, so I decided we would include firearms somehow. I had my best friend open the gender envelope, and buy the pink/blue powder that we would add to an explosive that John would shoot on location. I was worried to bring Mila, but I knew I wanted to get some family shots as well. the end product was perfection, as usual.












Photographer: Danielle Hughes // My Dress: Poshmark // Mila's Dress: sold out, similar HERE

dear mila + lucy,

May 13, 2017


I grew up with a sister 7 years older than me. I do have some good memories together, but when she was 21, things changed. her decisions altered her life, and little by little our relationship deteriorated. we reconnected when she became pregnant, and soon after that, we became roommates. but once again, she went downhill. now, years later, we have no relationship. she wasn't invited to my wedding, and will never meet my children. 

this past October while pregnant with Lucy, we passed each other in a store. I walked in, and barely recognized her. crazy right? how do you "barely recognize" your sibling? I looked at her, and kept on walking. I checked out, and called my cousin in a panic. out of all the days, out of all the stores .. it happened. I had never gone into this store before in my life, but needed something last minute before we left for Disney in the morning. it happened. we crossed paths, and I didn't even budge.

fast forward to February 3rd, 2017. Lucy came into our lives, and along with all the regular "mom fears", my biggest was the relationship between her and Mila. would they bond? would Mila love her right away? would they grow up and fight? would they share clothing? have similar taste in music, or even boys?

all the things I wasn't blessed with, I wanted my girls to have. 

I hope they respect each other through and through. I hope that when one messes up, the other is there to help them navigate back home. you teach your children one thing, and the world teaches them another. I hope they remind one another of their morals and self worth when I can't be there to do so.

that their love for each other over powers anything else in this life. 

when I think of their wedding days, I can only pray they are each other's maids of honor. they are each other's first phone call after a promotion at work, or even a bad date. I hope they share clothes, and even fight over them from time to time.

I want them to grow up strong, together. 

when Mila came to meet her new sister at the hospital, she walked in and said "hey, there's my baby sister", as if she had known her forever. no jealousy, just love. watching their relationship grow has been my greatest blessing. Mila protects her, and tries to teach her things. Lucy lights up when Mila comes into the room. seeing how a sisterly bond is meant to be, it's the greatest joy. the greatest love. my girls.




PPA.

May 8, 2017


I am pretty sure its always been inside of me, just hidden. I have always worried about the weirdest things, for as long as I can remember. back in the day, I would ask my dad to stay awake until after I fell asleep, because I thought nothing bad would happen if I was asleep. but if I was the one who was up the latest, that's when it creeped up. 

after getting married and starting a family, it subsided for a little bit. I would still have anxiety at night, especially if John fell asleep before me. I would try and always shut my eyes before him, hoping I would drift off just a minute before he did. when his job required him to live away for 6 months when Mila was just 3 months, I was sad, but knew I couldn't show it. it was bad. I would be awake until 3-4am each night, listening to the sounds of the house and neighborhood. if I heard the strangest sound, I would be pacing for hours downstairs. I would dread bedtime because it meant that I was alone again. 

now, 3 years later, I am finally feeling stronger. mentally. but when Mila turned 1, I hit my lowest point. as a parent, you are always worrying. from the time you open your eyes, even when they are asleep. it really is a 24/7 job. but man, I never want to go back to that dark place.

I would sit up at night sobbing (the ugly sobs), petrified. John and Mila would both be fast asleep, and I still would break out in a stress sweat. there were days I didn't leave the house because I was so afraid something would happen to me or the baby. every time I would do Mila's hair, I would turn to John and say, "are you watching? you have to make sure you can do her hair incase I am not here to do it for her". I didn't want to drive with her in the car, I watched her every move, every breath, every bite. I just had this underlining feeling that something was going to happen. being in a crowded place was unbearable too. would someone rob us? kidnap my kid? shoot up the place? I remember calling my aunt one night (who always gives the best advice) and crying to her on the phone. trying to put into words what I was experiencing. I felt crazy when the words rolled off my tongue. I never thought I would be here. I was depriving my child of amazing memories, all because I didn't want to buckle her into the carseat wrong, or go to Target for diapers.

my husband was as understanding as he could be, driving us places and making sure I didn't have a panic attack in the middle of the frozen pizza aisle. but I knew I was the only one who could help myself. I needed to learn that I couldn't "keep us in a bubble". I couldn't allow my mind to be terrorized by my thoughts. and man, this shit is hard. 

Mila is now 3, and I recently decided to go back to work. it has helped me tremendously. it keeps my mind busy during the day, and it helps me sleep better at night. I knew that I needed to make a change. I had to find the solution. Mila is thriving, making the best memories and I am happy to say that I am right there next to her along the way. of course I will always have the mom worry, but I try not to let it consume me. I can go run errands, wait in line for 10 minutes and not think the worst. I can drive us to the zoo, park, or the beach, and just enjoy the moments. this is what life is about.




*original date written January 2016

family update | lucy belle

April 20, 2017


you guys, how has it been over a year?! well .. we have been pretty busy. we had another baby! complete surprise, so I think the shock factor lead me to take a break from a lot of things .. like writing. we have been doing some home updates - does that ever really end? - be on the lookout for those! I have also been trying some new products (mommy/baby/beauty) - so I am excited for you guys to see some new collaborations - along with promo codes! I plan to do a lot more blogs soon, but for now - meet our newest babe, Lucy Belle.










Photos done by: Danielle Hughes Photography
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